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♥ Monday, August 31, 2009

Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers

not entirely a happy day for me
not saying whole day not happy
but just because of 1 action from me
most friends think that i am a good girlfriend or whatsoever
but i myself don't think it's true at all
it's true that i buy presents, cake, lunch, etc for him
but can all these really make him happy all the time?
well it's not (a wake up call for myself)
it's like "money can never buy happiness"
so what if i keep buying all those things?
does it mean i treat him well?
a simple action like saying things that will hurt him
not those scolding one
like never think through in my mind and then say out
unknowingly that just that sentence hurt him so much
such actions can really annoying
i know my mistakes i regret what i have done
to those who thinks that my boyfriend doesn't treat me as good as i do
YOU ALL TOTALLY GOT THE WHOLE PICTURE WRONG
*unless you mixed up my gender and his*
he's been caring for me,
making sure i don't get hurt/sick
and when im sick,
he will always make sure i don't eat those not good for my health
remind me to drink more water
when im studying with him
he will massage me
especially during my O level period
when he accompanied me near my house to study
accompany me till sleep or get very bored
he's always been there for me
and yet me?
what have i done?
i don't have the right to say good things i have done
such a simple task like thinking through his feelings
can slip off my mind
i feel very very guilty
and saying sorry isn't going to help with anything
how to you get rid of a scar?
no idea right?
a scar is a permanent thing
i know im very fortunate
i must learn to cherish everything especially him
always think of him before using my stupid head to do/say anything
guess this sounds like a reflection

//i want to be your dream girlfriend x33 dear

Labels: August 2009