hm . its been another week . my cough hasn't fully recovered . but feeling better and i am able to sleep through the night for now . if the cough prolong for another week . i think it is advisable to go see a doctor to find out what is causing it . and prelim results are all out .
English - C6 History elective - C5 Physics - C5 Chinese - B3 (from O level since i am not retaking it again) Amaths - A1 Emaths - A1 Chemistry - A1
well . the first three aren't really desirable grades . well they totally suck . i know . i got to push english and history up . those 2 are more important as they are compulsory in the calculation of L1R5 or L1R4 . whereas for physics . i feel that there is much room for improvement and i should not leave it out and take chinese as a back up as B3 isn't a good mark either . it is best that i push physics to As . english to A2 . History elective to A1 . i believe i can do it and i WILL do it ! SAKAKI you can do it ! ROARS !
well next most important thing . 2nd month anniversary . why is it called anniversary when is not even a year ? i wonder =x anyway . my darling boy made a movie for me . i ranked it 4/5 because he made me cry =x although there isn't any pictures inside . i feel that words tell more than words and it did after making me cry . hahas . should i upload the movie up ? if you all want . get this lazy bum to go do it ! xD
it seem as though i don't have anything to post these few days . my last post was like 12 september? now is about a week later . maybe is not that i don't have anything interesting to post about . maybe im just running away from all those events . mainly in relationships . be it friends or boyfriend/girlfriend relationship . maybe im the one asking too much in life . have i been too spoilt ? or am i just listening to someone for everything? i have voiced out my wants . i don't know if i will get it . i just feel so confused . like in a dilemma . i just hope such small problems won't make us fall apart . you said i don't understand you . i want you to stand in my shoes . i know you have more problems than me and i shouldn't be the one sulking . haish . im like what you ask me to give you . i need some attention . i guess im asking too much . even posting this is making me cry .
watched Make it Happen yesterday . hm . story line i won't say is fantastic . but is sort of dragged . well . dance moves . i reckon is rather good . sleek . flexible and fast . overall i find it very nice if you are interested in dance . i love it ! for those who watched step up 1 and step up 2 . the story line there is much better as is not draggy . the dance moves are sort of different . for Make It Happen, there is abit of modern dance in it too . BUT is not those slow type like ballet . so don't worry .
hm . 1 week has passed . im still having cough . flu . sore throat . i don't know if this is a sign for something . x.x anyway . prelims are finishing . worst paper of all was today's paper . PHYSICS . got to work hard for it ! must SCORE !
i really can conclude that this month is really a horrendous week . starting with confiscation of phone but returned after a few weeks then robbery . phone got stolen . my dear stuffs (everything) got stolen too . so our relationship was put to the test . a really difficult one . that our relationship was on a cliff going to fall off . x.x thank god . we managed to get through that . then family stress . i shall not elaborate on this . study stress ? of course . my prelims is like 2 days more . and i don't even know if im ready . then with my sore throat and today i got flu . constant sneezing and running nose . then something else which i will not say here . what else can i get ? bad results for prelims? dam it . i don't even wish to think about it . i will only promise to do my very very best for prelims . but with all my illnesses making me tired . i don't know how i can get through it properly .
just felt like blogging . but no idea what to blog about . these few weeks aren't very good to me . it feels like hell to me . now i feel so guilty about blasting all my problems to him . i know im suppose to share . but blasting out like that way (he should know) isn't appropiate . haish . not only i can't help him in anything . im just adding more burden on him . maybe maybe is just some passing black clouds over us . maybe .. now not only emotional got problems . im starting to get sore throats . frequent headaches . i don't know if i can really get through this year .
seriously bad day . don't even want to talk . eat . all i want to do is to sleep . wishing that it was a dream . ain't i running away from reality? im so much better off than my dear . he lost like 3times as bad as me . i shouldn't be the one sulking . i should be the one consoling my dear and not him ! that guy who took our stuffs . you better watch out . if i see any of our stuffs on you . i will skin you alive . then torture you slowly . you made my dear and my life so miserable . you better fuck off . fuck off from our sight . dam . am i not destined to get my phone back? what did i do ? i just got my phone back from teacher and now this . fuck this life . shush . i should stop sulking and complaining ! wth is wrong with me . can someone do tell me what to do ?! i can't even think straight now . im struggling with problems here and there . can i still take it? will i even survive through this round? the only thing that is good now is knowing him and being with him .
